Hi everyone and welcome to my site how to live with anxiety, and some ways I dealt with anxiety and how it affected my life.
I have always had anxiety as far back as I can remember, even as a young child I didn’t want to go different places or be in front of people. I would get so scared about the way I was feeling and I had no idea what was going on.
As I got older and was going to high school and playing sports, I found if I was busy doing something like playing sports it kept me from feeling so bad. I couldn’t ride the bus to games because I could’t stand being where I could’t leave if I wanted too. There was many times I would feel I needed to escape from a place I was at. I also would drink alcohol to help me cope. There seemed to be no rhyme or reason when this weird feeling I would have would appear. I was always in fear I was going to feel like my heart was beating out of my chest, heart skipping beats, which I noticed every beat out of sync. I still do.
Out of high school I got married and moved about 20 miles away from home. I hated it, my safe place was gone. My anxiety got worse and at that time the doctors didn’t know what was going on with me. Lots and lots of heart tests and lab work and everything was fine. It wasn’t fine, I felt like I was going crazy and I was going to die at any moment.
I went to many doctors and therapists and missed out on a lot of life. This is not how I wanted to live my life. I had a baby, we named him Ben and every time he got sick, I thought he was going to die. My life felt like it was always falling apart, and I was crazy. I was getting so depressed about it and didn’t know what to do.
Years went by and nothing helped me, I missed out on my sons graduation. It seemed like I was missing out on everything. I was lucky and have a very understanding husband. I found if I was outside and not in a building I did better.
Today at 61 years old I am much better, I can do most things and know what works for me to get through a situation that before I wouldn’t have even tried too. Helping with an anxiety group here in town and help as many people as I can. I love helping people. I went back to college and got my Licensed Practical Nurse degree so I can help people. It’s my purpose in life.
Loving my life and looking forward to buying a horse this summer which I am super excited about. I miss riding and haven’t for years. I love taking walks with my two German Shepherd, Ace and Roxy. I will be posting pictures of them soon.
I wanted to share this with people so it might help them like it did for me, along with some supplements I take and I will share that with you as well. I love helping people or I wouldn’t have become a nurse. Love to see people thrive.
If you have any questions just give me a shout and I will answer the best I can.
All the best,